Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Not exactly what we wanted to hear

After lots of waiting, we finally got the full pathology report back after 5:00 this afternoon. The cancer had spread out of the two tumors to her lymph nodes. This was quite discouraging news as it means Chloe's cancer is stage 3 and will require radiation in addition to chemotherapy. We'll be meeting with the oncologist for over an hour tomorrow afternoon to discuss treatment options and try to grasp what this means.

Please pray that we find the ears to hear and the ability to understand what they are telling us. There is so much terminology that we've never had to use and the few short conversations we had with the oncologist this afternoon were truly mind-boggling.

Please also pray for Christa. She had a really rough afternoon waiting for the report and the disappointing news was too much to take. She's at home tonight with Martha and Henri, hopefully getting a good night's sleep. I'm at the hospital sitting next to a sleeping Chloe.

While Christa's afternoon was miserable, Chloe has been having a great afternoon and evening. They unhooked her from her IV and let us go downstairs to the library, to play in the garden, and a quick browse in the gift shop. When we got back upstairs, they decided that she didn't have to be hooked up again tonight. I haven't been able to keep up with her. There were therapy dogs visiting the floor so she was out in the hallway petting them and then found there were kids playing in the playroom which happens to be next door to her room. We were in and out of her room and all over, quite a treat after being hooked up to the IV "tree" for the past few days.

As I look down at Chloe nestled up next to me, with her characteristic head of curly golden locks, it's hard to fathom what lies ahead. In so many ways, just the process of arriving here and the surgery has seemed like the journey of a lifetime. Yet the journey has just barely begun. The road ahead will be long and difficult, but we know we're not alone. We are surrounded by such a huge group of family and friends that will be right along side us. This blog had 982 page views yesterday alone -- that's a lot of folks checking in and praying along side us. Thanks for walking this road with us.

27 comments:

sarahclswanson said...

Kip and Christa -
I am so sorry that the news was not what you had hoped to hear. Your family has been in my thoughts and prayers throughout these past days. We pray for complete healing for Chloe and strength and faith along the way.
Sarah

kashcroft said...

Kip & Christa - As I read your update I sit with tears and a heavy heart for you. I am so grateful for you gift of writing as this is not one of my strengths and I truly appreciate your willingness to share your journey with us. May God continue to give you the strength that is needed and please know that I am just one of the many praying for you and here to help in anyway. God Bless you all.....Karin

Julie Zeller said...

So sorry to hear this news. We will continue to pray for strength and healing. Peace to you, Tim and Julie Zeller

sherry said...

It is hard to know quite what to say other than, I'm so sorry. With that being said, I believe to my core "All things are possible with God." I pray for a good nights rest for all of you. Keep the faith and wishing you "peace"'.

Derek Emerson said...

At times when you can take no more, you have to take more. But never quit looking at that child who seems to ignore all that swirls around her. God is present in her -- you will find God's grace in her smile, her sleepy sighs, and her body wrapped up next to you. You are part of a living prayer so drink deep from God's grace.

Erik said...

Kip and Christa - Jed's friend Erik here. We've been following this since Jed let us know about Chloe. We just want to let you know that we are praying fervently for your whole family. I pray that God's hand of comfort will be strongly felt by you all, that he will give strength to Chloe, patience and understanding to you, Christa, Henri and Martha.

ann weller said...

Wishing you some peace for tonight, and hope for tomorrow, with God's grace over all--you and Chloe, the medical team, and all your family. Thinking of you.

team krasean said...

I am so saddened by your latest news. Praying that God will surround you with His love and care. Thanks for being so open and honest in these posts - I appreciate being able to pray so specifically for all of you in this situation. Love to all of you - praying that you can all get some rest tonight. -Sonja

erin heiser said...

Guys, I can't express how sorry I am to hear this news. Just know Kelli and I are thinking of you all. And sending lots of good, healing thoughts and prayers. ~Erin

cherise vander heide said...

hi
i am yasmin's mom and heard your heartbreaking news. Our family will keep you and sweet chloe in our prayers.

krynbran said...

Kip & Christa,
My heart so goes out to you. I too as many others continue to lift Chloe and you all up in prayer. Thank you for sharing your painful journey and allowing others the opportunity to hold up in prayer. Music is so key in my life and there are several songs even now that come to mind. Number one though is "Press On". Also, "Held", and the one that says "When you can't trace HIS hand, trust HIS heart". Keep believing, God is able and will give you the strength you need at the moment you need it.
Kathy Rynbrandt

Kim Mendels said...

These struggles bring new meaning to the words we sing w/the kids in worship center, "Be still and know that I am God". So glad you are surrounded by an army of family and friends in faith as you begin this journey. Peace, prayers and strength to your precious family.
Kim and Kevin Mendels and Girls

Holly and Ddog said...

I am at a loss for words so I rest in the knowledge that He understands our silence, our tears, our doubts...please know I am on the frontline in prayer for you guys. Rest in Him.
It is obvious you are loved and others will be battling with you.

Adriann Divozzo said...

This is beyond understanding, so I just come back to staying in faith, which lends love and endurance. My prayers and love to you, adriann

becky said...

Kip and christa - we are so sorry to hear that news. Our hearts are saddened with yours. We put all hope in the power of Jesus. Please know we love you and are praying constantly. There are no words that we can even offer. Praise god he speaks on our behalf. Holding you all close. Becky and steve

Jane said...

May God continue to wrap his loving arms around your entire family and provide you with everything you need! I am praying for all of you!

Jane

Courtney said...

My sister, Erin Heiser-Muddell, posted your blog on her FB page. I'm so sorry for the terrible news and will be sending up lots of prayers and positive thoughts for Chloe and your entire family.

I hope you find comfort and rest in each other right now!

Courtney Hartman
Fort Wayne, IN

Meg said...

Kip and Christa,
We are praying for you, holding you up high in our thoughts and knowing God will pay attention. I have faith in how this was found and know Chloe is strong as presented by your latest posts. We are here for you as well.
The Frens

rparker said...

Kip, Christa & family,
You confimue to be in the prayers of our family. So sorry about the disappointing news bur it sounds like Chloe is doing as well as possible. May her spirits continue to be positive.
In our thoughts,
Roberta Parker

Nancy said...

I hope Christa slept well last night. DId she? That was my going-to-bed prayer. Much love, Nancy

Sara Wang said...

Kip and Christa, I am following your blog and just want you to know that prayers are being offered up in MN for you and your precious daughter.

Sara Wang

Leah said...

Hi Kip and Christa - I heard about your sweet Chloe through your parents, Craig and Vicky. My husband Derek, my own little Isla, and myself are all sending prayers your way. God is so good and I pray that he wraps that precious Chloe in his arms as you journey through this.

Mary DY said...

Continued prayers for healing my sweet babe Chloe. May you and Christa know peace in the midst of this chaotic situation. We love you all and know how strong you can be.

svanfaro said...

Wow that really sucks! I hate it that you have to go through this. This is so hard because we are so weak. But the great news is that God really is awesome. And you are going to see him work in amazing ways in your hearts and minds and Chloe's body. In the end we are His and His plan is the best for us in ways that we will never know even though it is impossible to to feel that in this moment. I am hurting and crying for you at this time. I know how difficult and long this road is but I can say with equal confidence that Christ will show Himself.

Much love,
Sarah VF

Mark Kornelis said...

We were so saddened to hear of the worse than hoped for diagnosis. We too pray for some measure of peace and comfort as you prepare for the path ahead. Mark and Amy

Hummingbird said...

Dearest Kip and Christa,

I so sorry to hear of the disappointing diagnosis. I continue to think of you and pray for all that will strengthen and support you both and little Chloe as you embark on this journey.
Peace,
Rhonda

roobee said...

I don't know what to say, except that I am sorry, and that I can't stop thinking about you guys. Sending you lots of prayers and strength.

Ruby Boyden
(Woodbridge)