yet i do believe that God can take a horrible thing
and from it bring beauty.
i am experiencing that tonight.
i would never choose to experience this.
i do not believe that God gave chloe cancer to teach us something.
God is giving us so much through this.
after a harried week in the hospital, i found time to just be with some dear friends.
we talked about everything.
suddenly i felt moved to tears,
not because i am so sad,
but because i am so grateful.
i am so grateful for these dear friends who will do
empty my trash
be my substitute teacher
bring me coffee
facilitate my "foodie" practices
buy hand sanitizer
send me prayers
do my laundry
respect my need for space
the list goes on.
a few weeks ago, i felt astounded by the fact that
i have led a charmed life.
i truly had not had to face difficulty.
i can still say that i lead a charmed life.
i am not grateful to see my child suffer.
i wish i could erase this all.
yet through it all i see love and grace
and i can give thanks.